A Life full of moments....

As I ponder on my life so far,
I wonder- how did it all go by?
Did I live it enough to justify?
Or was I a mere passer by?

I think I simply let it be
and just allowed it to unfold.
It was the simple but precious moments
that had profound impact in it behold.

It was there in the silence that follows a soulful song....
The sigh of relief after fixing whats gone wrong....
In the peace that prevails after a good cry.....
In the first sip of my morning chai.....

It was there in the pause that punctuates a loving conversation....
In that feeling when I'm tired from a job thats well done....
It was there in the moment I chose to remain silent
instead of carrying on with the meaningless argument.

It was there the moment everything fell into place
after I chose to walk away from the rat race.
It was there all the time, right under my nose.
It was me that was far away, inspite of being so close.
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On the other hand.....

So when did I lose my moments of life?
Was it in my pursuit of perfection?
Or was it in my relentless chase
for a word of unprecedented praise?

It must have been my quest
of some aceptance and respect.
It was my urge to defend my position
or the need to prove my pleasing disposition.

It could have been when I made a choice
of a position of combat, instead of one of poise.
It must have been when I allowed
the pain of my past to linger on...

I let my beliefs get the better of me
when an open mind was the necessity.
I allowed myself to be digressed
when all the issue needed was to be addressed

It is at these moments that I lost it the most
The window of opportunity for personal growth.